i have been with my boyfriend for about 6 months. when we first met he was going to the methadone clinic (after being ‘clean’ from herion) and taking about 110 mg a day. he was also taking pain pills to enhance the high of the opiates (sp?) or something like that. i am not positive if he was even clean from herion, because he best friend was doing it everyday in his room, and i dont understand why he would still want to be around it..? anyways, we moved away from his clinic and he started disappearing for hours while going to dose. after a big fight, he decided to stop doing cold turkey. this was in january. i recently moved out to save money and since then he has been acting funny. secretly talking to his friend who now lived with 3 miles who he always did drugs with. bedroom activity is off & on, which is unusual. i noticed him nodding off last week. i got an at home drug test and asked him to take it. he flat out REFUSED!! 4 days later, he wants to take it. i told him its to late, im not stupid drugs leave your system blah blah blah.

i know he was really really proud of himself after he went through withdrawals in the beginning, so i figure he would be proud to test clean!! i told him no matter what the outcome, i would still be there. and i will be!!! so, why refuse..??
here’s an example of when we talk about him doing drugs…

me: i should have known when i met you that when i came down to it, drugs would be chosen over me. even though i know you love me, im pretty sure losing me is easier then stopping drugs.

him: the only thing i can see to do now is take your test
what the fuck
that is not true at all and you cannot sit there and say what the fuck i would do
I would never choose anything over you
‘i would rather die and that is the truth
i dont see how you can sit there and say you should have known, why would i change in the first place?
you think this is a game to me or something
you are my future and nothing else and when i say you, I mean our future together, because that is all I really want is to have a future with you, making you happy, providing for us, not me or you, just us
CONTINUED..

me: can i ask you something??
have you done anything drugwise since you stopped going to the clinic? at all..?

him: i’ve taken opiate blockers, it prevents you from getting high
is that what you want to hear
i’m such an addict that i to prevent myself from using i made it impossible
now i dont even worry about it?
but obviously you do

opiate addiction

after patients work their way up to a high dose why aint they made to work their way back down and wean off of the drug it is awfull to watch a family member killing their self on a legal high,and it is also awfull watching a family member do the things they do to get the money to get the legal high every day.from what i understand it is to get people off of other drugs,but it is no different than buying off the street except the government is getting a pocket full to,i know women who sell their body and do what ever else they have to do to get the drug or get the money to go to the clinic.i wish every methadone clinic would blow sky high. it is a awfull feeling for the parents of the younger ones on this legal high,we are watching our children die from a legal high and cant do nothing about it

methadone addict